distractions distractions... it's hard man... it's really hard. I'm trying... nothing is helping. I got through the day ignoring them with music and reading old thread post but even then I get distracted. they say everyone hates me. they also say people want me dead but I don't believe that. I want to join the dead. the world would be a happier place when I'm gone they say. sure people will be sad I'm gone but they'll get over it they say. I wont cause them hurt. I'm a burden a failure they say... god I hate this.It's getting to me.
I'm scared. I just want it to stop. some relief... something. They tell me to do bad things. I don't want to do it. It scares me. I want to talk about happier things. I'm bringing everyone down with my negativity but negativity lives inside my head right now and in my ears.