just a vent. no need to read. no need to respond. just getting it out. feel so useless. worthless. pathetic. guess i know myself pretty well...know what i am. screw everything up. screwed my whole life up. guess i get what i deserve. sweet f.a. most of the time. no hubby. no kids. no job. no friends who really give a damn. irl friends who only call when they need something. money. favor. shoulder to cry on. online friends. i know for a fact not one would care if they met me irl coz they'd see how pathetic i really am. hubby. had 2 abusive marriages already. ain't dumb enuff to go there a 3rd time but don't gotta worry about that anyway coz no man in his right mind would want a screw-up like me. job. used to be a careworker and also worked with abused kids. used to be damned good at it too but who'd employ me now i've finally owned to having mental health probs. ironic thing is i've had mental health probs from 11 y.o. but always managed to hide it. nothing like honesty to screw your life up. end of rant except...no need for anybody to waste time responding to this. just letting it out, be fine tomorrow, i'm not a quitter...just finding it hard these days to see what there is to keep going for.