This is my first time posting in this section. But pretty much a few years ago, I was diagnosed with bpd 2. Was given a cocktail of lithium, welbuterin, and seroquil. This happened in full downswing. I started getting better, made the snap decision to move amd start over, and took myself off my meds. I was essentially ok for a good piece. Just small waves here and there. But now, I am in another full downswing.

I tried ignoring it, hoping it would go away. But my moods not improving. Its getting worse. Im worried about a full relapse. Complete with the drugs, alcohol, self injury, and stupid decisions.

Part of me knows i need to see someone, but that would mean the people who think im doing ok are going to find out. And i just cant deal with that right now. Idk what to do..