This has been a beautiful series of postings. I, too, am grieving and have not yet learned how to express it. I keep myself bottled up, locked up tight and as long as I do that I cannot "get over it". My T is helping me learn how to grieve, how to let myself go. I am still grieving over my best friend who died in 1988 - I still miss him but I know a part of him lives on inside of me and will always be with me. He is my guardian angel, now. I think all of he comments on this thread have been so heartfelt and so compassionate it brings me to tears. Thank you all and thank you, Alexandra, for starting the thread in the first place.