I'm so sorry that you're hurting so much, UhMe! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said MUCH, MUCH better than I EVER COULD! You've been given PLENTY of great, kind, wise and wonderful advice on this thread! I'd suggest to follow it AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN IF YOU WANT TO! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could about other people finding out your diagnosis! It's none of their business and your doctors can't disclose ANY personal information with others without your explicit permission! You're safe on that aspect! Most importantly please remember that YOUR OWN HEALTH must be the TOP PRIORITY! I strongly recommend you to get help as soon as possible! I feel like that's necessary since you're feeling so bad! YOU MATTER AND YOUR LIFE MATTERS! Please let us know how things are going for you, ok? We DO CARE ABOUT YOU and we DO WANT TO KNOW how things are going for you and if things are getting ANY BETTER for you and if there's ANYTHING AT ALL that we can do to HELP YOU OUT! I PROMISE YOU ALL OF THAT BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! PLEASE REMEMBER ALL OF THATAS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN BECAUSE IT IS TRUE! Sending many hugs to you, UhMe!