Thanks to those who gave me much needed hugs, and those who read my posts and care. The support I get here gives me strength and comfort. I send hugs and love to everyone here.

Autumn has finally settled in with last night being 7`C (45`F) and daytime max at 17`C (60`F). Not cold for a lot of you guys but here in southern Australia it is, and it can get to freezing during winter too. This leads me to have to wear a wetsuit to swim in the ocean, and worse water conditions at times too. Maybe I will try and use the local pool, but it is nothing compared to being immersed in nature.

I am losing weight. It is great because I gained during my last admission, but not so good as I am barely eating. I am just not hungry. Probably all the stress. I am becoming very reactive at times now. It is like agitation but I doubt it's from the Bipolar. Really simple things like a single word can make me wild and sen me into a downward spiral. Basically, I am being triggered and it pulls up all the emotions surrounding the trauma. I've been through worse PTSD than this before so right now I can handle it. Thankfully my partner was around for some of that time I was seriously ill with PTSD so he understands me, knows how to help me, and graciously accepts me when I am snappy and quite nasty at times. He doesn't let himself be trod on though and sets firm boundaries. I love this as it keeps him from drowning with me.

Chinese dinner with my partner, parents, sister, brother-in-law, and four nieces and nephews tonight. Should be wonderful. It is for my mother's birthday.