Yours too, Decha. You can learn alot about yourself by just sitting quietly and writing.
And Mickey, there are books designed to help a person figure this stuff out. One I remember that was kind of a classic when I was a young adult was What Color Is Your Parachute by I think it was Richard Bolles. But there are probably others. This type of thing you could work on quietly by yourself and maybe identify a path forward.
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