Thank you Mopey, i really appreciate what you have written here.

yesterday's dozen pills made me sleep until 3.30pm today and spent the rest of the day in bed watching tv series but i wasnt even that much interested in what i was watching at the moment. i only felt like going back to sleep but i had to appear normal for my parents.

my coworker E called me but my phone was tuned off and when i called her back it was too late, she was having guests. maybe we can try again tomorrow or next week. im just bothered that i must waste half day of my weekends while i could do it alone, but as i saif, for the first time i'd be glad to have someone with me.

as for honestly i dont think i can be honest with anyone except my Ts or here on PC.

cant wait to go back to bed...