I need you right now. May is always excruciatingly painful for me plus in next week it will be a year since I have seen you...I still cant believe you are gone. I have been extremely triggered the last few weeks but I have been holding it together' not using excessive alcohol or SH. It has been hard though. I did not need to have tonight happen. Finding out niece has a good chance of having cancer, then kiddo needing to be checked in the Er was too much for me. He was in the Er you worked I could help to wish I could text you for comfort. It brought back so many memories. Now other son is angry because our plans were in his mind ruined..when they didnt need to be. I think there is more going on in his head than he is telling us.