There's no need to compare yourself to other, StripedTapir! You're BEAUTIFUL and UNIQUE just the way you are! You don't need to change just to fit other people's standards! I completely agree with what all the other wise, wonderful posters have already wisely said better than I ever could! Finding the value and worth within ourselves when there are NO PEOPLE SUPPORTING US i certainly very hard, but it CAN be done! Please NEVER give up hope! Try to HANG ON AS MUCH AS YOU POSSIBLY CAN! Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help! You could learn new things and new ways to cope with your feelings! Please DO consider seeking help if you're feeling SO BAD, ok? Let us know how things are going for you and if things are ANY BETTER FOR YOU and if there's ANYTHING AT ALL that we can do to HELP YOU OUT! WE ALL DO CARE ABOUT YOU! Sending many warm, safe hugs to you, StripedTapir!