When I started in treatment I was almost completely nonverbal in talk sessions. No one could get anything out of me. Then after a terrible session with my psychiatrist, I wrote him an essay. I shared with him some of my history I could never speak. Writing became my key vehicle for communication with him. He understood early on that if he was going to get anything meaningful out of me it was going to be in written form. Over time, my trust grew and I allowed him to nudge me toward becoming more and more verbal. Finally, I made a breakthrough and was able to tell him about a traumatic event that had happened in between sessions, almost in real time. He calls it the session where "I found my voice" That moment changed my life. I even wrote a book about that journey with him.


You aren't alone. Keep writing and keep allowing yourself to be nudged in the direction of being verbal. The key is trust. You will find your voice.