Elaboration: I am all over the place with acceptance and denial. I might even say there are blaring blinking neon signs all around me, and yet I still either don't want to see them, see them and pretend I don't...or tell myself I am imagining things.
Dnester...I know you're having a lot of confusion and anxiety about what to call yourself and which box you fit into...I think perhaps that answer will reveal itself with time, patience, openness and the willingness to not know for a while.
I, like you, am doing my best to take it one moment at a time and not to use such black and white thinking. Please breathe....and know that in time, this stuff will sort itself out.
FearLess47