Yea I think it was that.

Idk I'm just tired of THINGS making me happy. Materials. Then it goes away. I tried to play my guitar and I sucked. And it made everything happy go away from me. You know? I didnt feel happy anymore.

But also I had anxiety this morning. I know it was because my body, but I've been extremely depressed lately and anxious. Part of it is the relationship even tho things are ok now, but now its cuz the job thing.

Like idk what I got myself into with this job thing. Idk what to do. I just want to hide and drink but that's me staying in my comfort zone. I goto the liquor store every day or 2 days. In hate it.