Hey all, I was feeling really anxious today. I SH-ed yesterday and today which means I totally didn't make it until Pentecost. I just couldn't keep going any longer. What a mess I am. I'm not even done. Took some xanax today which finally mellowed me out. I feel like taking a nap now which I can't because I'm at work and then tonight I have PDOC appointment. I feel pretty dang dissociated now but that's probably the xanax too. I'm getting more xanax at the pharmacy tonight so I'm not going to run out.