i am wondering why you would feel your children's best interests are not in line with your own wants? Is it because it limits your H's access? Is there a good reason for that beyond a dislike on your part?

i have no way to offer advice about that stuff... it's way beyond me.. coaches? all these therapists... wow... you have a lot more strength than i my dear... i dont know how you do it. i have trouble juggling just me.

i have refused role play... i cant deal with feeling dumb and i would feel oh so dumb... not because its a dumb thing to do, more like playing pretend.. id feel weird. T gets annoyed with that.

im sorry.. i wanted to be all supportive, and i dont know if i said one supportive thing

look... you are so very strong and thoughtful.. you dont just do things willy nilly... you have a great depth to you. Trust yourself.