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SlumberKitty · May 20, 2019, 05:49 PM

Dear T:

Possible trigger:

I've been SH-ing. This is why I can't start because it's hard for me to stop. The endorphins are swimming through my body, making everything chill and alright and I don't want this feeling to end. It's probably going to be a few days in the cycle. You're going to want me to recommit to some time when I see you Saturday, aren't you?

I don't know if I can. I want to just sit here, zone out, and dissociate my way through the days. Never mind the

Possible trigger:

gauze pulling at my skin, and the athletic tape biting into my arm.

It's like can't I just feel like this any other time? This will have been my first big relapse with you. I wonder how you're going to deal with it. I know you said in the beginning that it's not about you. And it's not. But your response matters. Your lack of response might matter too. I hope you don't have nothing to say. I hope you have something helpful to say. I guess see you Saturday for better or for worse. Kit