May 20, 2019 at 08:21 PM
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Originally Posted by LifelongLoner
CPSD has ruined a lot of my memory. It is just not there. I no longer remember a lot of facts from my education. I am, though, remembering some childhood events with a new perspective. I don't know if it is a fair tradeoff but even at my age I continue to process events from my past. Sometimes, I let my mind roam free and when a feeling comes up, I ask myself "why do I feel like that?" Sometimes, after some time, the answer reveals itself. It's not a speedy process (at least for me). Sometimes our animal minds work in mysterious ways. Gently prod it and see where it takes you.
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Is that what happened to my memory? It is awful how little I remember from my life. Forget about education. I had always thought I had a learning disorder because I could not hold information. I told my T I have an awful memory and it is hard to fully recount events. I read and was told by another T that trauma in childhood when the brain is still growing causes scaring on the brain. It made sense to me.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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