But maybe my negative symptoms are worse in other people's perspectives. Just like how I see people that smoke weed. If those people have it together and aren't too high/insane.

It's just the meditative people that seem different but the philosophical, contemplative people like Joe Rogan for example, seem either too into reality or too out of it.

I don't really understand these connections. But maybe that's a good thing. I don't know the truth. But the more you connect the dots, the more deep into it you get. Just like conspiracy theorists. They shouldn't be damaging their minds by trying to know everything.

But I think my perspective is that way because I have trouble by always reaching the end of solipsistic infinite knowledge that cause some type of emotion such as pain to put an end to the never ending infinite universe.