Hi celeste (I spelled it right this time!) I'm sorry you are having a difficult time right now, I sure understand turmoil. <font color="green">

Perhaps you are sharing stuff here that you really haven't been able to share with your partner... and the level of sharing with your partner reached a limit of trust you aren't able to cross right now?

If you also rely upon him when you want to have fun, and he also shares and relies upon you when he is having a bad day, then it sounds like a pretty balanced relationship. If he expects you to just be there day to day and you leave him alone except for when you are down, then the relationship needs work anyway.

The confusion that arises when we work on ourselves is normal. Therapy (in any form) is WORK. You said you can't express yourself clearly to him at the moment.. try and remember it will pass, this moment... once you work out some things with yourself, once the "crisis" feeling passes, etc... you will be able to share more stuff, again IMO.

Hang in there.