I really think it goes back my GAD, or perhaps a form of OCD. I know I’m on the anxiety spectrum. I’m terrible about ruminating about things that I have no control over, or that are very unlikely to happen. I think what bothers me most about it is that
if it were true there’s no treatment or cure. But anyway I haven’t looked it up in long time (a few weeks) I just wanted to get on here and respond to the kind and supportive comments, thank you.