I'd like to ask you what you are doing for yourself TishaBuv? You seem to have been knocked back by people around you, but you are smart and have a breadth of life experience. How can you use that for you personally.

Your sons seem to have lucked out in getting so much financial support from their parents but it's normal to need to make our own mistakes and to learn from them.
I'm not writing this to be nasty at all, but your recent posts seem so sad - and somewhere deep in that sadness is the kernel of new growth - nurtured by all your rich life experience. It's a work to transform sadness into growth... but you will - I have this sense of richness waiting to happen in you - like the old fortune teller that I am.

Hugs!!!