I really should explain that during our session before last, I was tipsy and more willing to admit a lot of things, including things like how I'm too afraid to express negative emotions sometimes because he may think of it as attention seeking behaviour because of my known feelings towards him. I think it bothered him and made him think I wasn't comfortable enough, so he doesn't want me to be someone else, he just wants me to be me. Flaws and all. I just don't know how to do that because I'm always on my toes and fear being rejected.