I'm having a calm day without depressed feelings, quite a rare thing in my anxious life. A calm day and thoughts of T.
Non-dissociate calmness or maybe actually it is dissociation to the place in me that loves T and that T cares about.

I just know that today.. it feels good.

I may shock her with a non-crisis phone message to tell her what I'm feeling and how good it feels. hehe