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Originally Posted by Forgetmenot07
I really want to see my responsibility in this though... i want to understand why she could have thought it's appropriate to act this way. I just wish I could analyse it for what it was and not take it so personally. I can rationalise all i want but this hit me hard.
I absolutely despise those reality checks when I see i am in therapy alone, that the minute I decide to stop it stops, that it only works if i make it work, that she (or most therapist) would never reach out and when I want attention it feels so dirty and manipulative. Maybe i dont like feeling responsible for my life? I really don't want you play the victim or blame her
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My idea is that she is a.) insensitive but b.) she could also want to force out the empowered you in you. You will only learn about her reactions if you do the "normal" thing, which is to ask her your questions face to face. And maybe she does not answer your emails because she's not getting paid for this.
How come you write her all these emails but cannot really face her with all that you have written? It's complicated for me to understand. What is your reason for not asking her at the beginning of a session "so, what do you say to my emails?", or something along that line. Would you describe yourself as very timid in all real life, person-to-person interactions? Or only when you're in love?
Because if you would describe yourself as timid, my next question is, is it one of your goals to overcome your timidity?
What are your goals?
(If any of the above sounds brash, provocative or challenging, it's not meant to. I am very much on your side, and really curious.)