Mz J,
Thank you for acknowledging my progress. Trusting my T has been a hard concept for me to grasp. Now if I can only learn how to lower my guard a bit and allow myself to be a little vulnerable, I might actually resolve some of my issues. Disclosing details is one thing, talking about them and exploring how I really feel about stuff is another thing.

One key lesson I've learn since I've addressed (at least academically) my trust issue is that most of the oppression that I presently feel is coming from inside me not from others. I am the one who has major problems with what I am thinking, feeling, doing. I'm the one who is being judgmental and unaccepting of myself. I'm the one who is denying myself of happiness.

I am communicating better about some things. However on core issues I am still withholding a lot of things for fear that saying them will make me look bad, appear amoral, or expose the fact that I am a shallow, unloving, or selfish. My fear is not about what my T will think, it is more about admitting to another person that I feel this way about myself. I'm not sure if talking about how amoral or how selfish I am will help me feel any better about being that way.

I am moving slowly forward, but at least I am moving. Thanks for the encouragement.