So yesterday he was in an unusually great mood and he was really nice. It was weird because I was prepared for moodiness and to be pushed away as usual so I had planned to keep to myself. Things can be unpredictable in my house. H can be really nice for days and maybe a few weeks.... And then for whatever reason... the distance and the grouchiness... often meanness... sets in and it usually sets in for many weeks but sometimes just days. It’s really confusing. For all I know, tonight he we will be mean and distant again.