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Originally Posted by Dnester
I would like to add that not everybodys experience is the same with anything. I can see why my therapist thinks this is a dissociative thing but coconscious. Normally people would have two impulses (speaking as if they are normal) either to touch the dog innapropriately or not to. There wouldnt be any fighting about it. No conflict. Either you would do it because you wanted to ot not do it because you didnt want to. Not conflicting feelings in one body about not wanting and wanting to do something.
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Of course there's conflicting feelings about not wanting and wanting to do something in every person not just those that are dissociative.I'm not sure why you would think there wouldn't be.
im not dissociative and I have conflicting feelings all the time.Just last night my son asked my husband and I to do something for him and I was really torn over what to do.It wasn't as simple as either doing it because I wanted to or not doing it because I didn't want to like you're saying.When I thought about doing it I had a different set of feelings than when I thought about not doing it. It was a real struggle to make a decision.
And as far as impulses and compulsions,sometimes I get the urge to do things like stick my finger in an electeical outlet.I know it's a strange and dangerous thing but I have to really fight to not do it.I've had this from a young age, it's not a dissociative thing,I don't even have a dissociative disorder anymore and it still happens.What you're describing sounds more like that,a strange compulsion that you have to fight against doing.
It has never been an actual physical struggle though, it's always been an internal one.Even when I was dissociative and had alters it was all just an internal thing and not anything that looked like I was having a "fit" or anything.DID is not actual real,physical people inside one body, it's a mental disorder so I don't understand why you have physical fights with yourself like that.Are you sure it's not just that the compulsion is so strong that you are having to stop yourself from doing it? There's been times where I have started to put my hand towards an outlet and have had to yank my hand back and think nope,not doing it.