Argh. I want to SH again. I don't even know what I'm going to tell T on Saturday. When I'm in a cycle, I feel like I have no choice but to let the cycle run itself out and then I'm good for a while. But I know that sounds crazy. . The cycle can easily make me feel stuck and it's hard to get unstuck. I miss former T because I could have emailed her through this cycle. Current T doesn't email. I see her Saturday and then not again until the 7th of June. I have no idea what I'm going to tell her on Saturday besides the fact that I SH-ed. HUGS Kit