I just want to ask 1 more question

i feel so avoidant, as in i feel like i know what i need to do; but i cant, not in a procrastination way.. but in a mentally incapable way?
Like anxiety, but more than that? Like getting locked up inside my head and sedated just enough to be able to watch this craziness goin on wandering wtf is wrong with me and why i cant make this madness stop