So very sorry for your loss Shredder0288
Universal speed to Sophia. Her struggle with depression and heroin has ended....I wonder if that knowledge can bring you any solace?
I imagine you have been through hell with your meth addiction and I would assume depression was underlying that too. Would you consider speaking with a grief counselor or a therapist?
You are still here...still living. It is not yet your time to leave. You have options. There are folks out there to provide help if you seek it. You need not be entirely alone.
Peace and hope to you Shredder.