I personally think you should be careful about all the info you are getting online from different forums and being so easily influenced Dnester.It's really only adding to your problems and confusion rather than helping.

If we, the members here,are saying conflicting emotions are normal and members on another forum are saying that's just a dissociative thing,how do you know who's right and who's wrong, what's true and what's not?

I personally think(I am saying personally because it's just my own opinion and you can take it or leave it) you would do so much better by presenting yourself,your struggles,symptoms and even all your concerns to your treatment providers.It shouldn't matter what you read online, what anyone else experiences or doesn't experience or even what anyone says,none of it's really going to help you.What is going to help you is making the decision to get the help/treatment you need instead of trying so hard to figure everything out yourself.

I am saying this because I did notice this same topic elsewhere and you were given different replies/info than you got here.Then you posted something that you read there as if it was for sure right Then went back there and posted what you read here.That can't be helpful for you at all.It has to just make it all even more confusing for you and has to be causing even more problems for you.And that's why I am choosing to not give my input anymore.I don't want to add to this harm that's being done,that you're doing to yourself with all of this

I wish you well on your healing journey.

Hugs