@LonesomeTonight: Therapy IS very seductive. I am a schizoid. I am not supposed to be attached to any one human being. Yet I felt that my relationship with the therapist was authentic and real. They set you up to lay out your deepest feelings and thoughts to them while they respond empathically and in caring ways. But the cold hard truth is that it is just a job to them. If you cannot afford them, you are out the door. Did you guys know that early psychoanalysts like Freud tried to make psychoanalysis free? There's even a book called Freud's Free Clinics. But now, therapists charge over $100 or $200 for a 45-minute session. It's just not the same.

@here today: You were in therapy for 55 years and no therapist worked out for you? I have been in therapy on and off since 2008. All were crap except for this therapist - or so it seems - who I've been working with since late 2015. This therapist and I definitely have our differences, but she's quite okay. I'm finding her to be an intellectual and I need one who is naturally more empathic. The therapist said that she is both an intellectual and an empath. But she is beginning to say that perhaps I really would benefit from a therapist who is more one-sided on the empathic side.