It seems that this therapist’s needs have taken precidence in your therapy relationship for at least a year now. It also looks like there was a bit of ‘stringing you along’ on her part.

I wouldn’t trust her either, and I actually do view this as a betrayal (though not one rooted in maliciousness).

She may have meant well, but it seems the grand baby, her academics, and everything else going on in her life has been taking center stage in your therapy and caused you uncertainty and distress. That wasn’t and isn’t fair to you. It sounds like you needed someone who was present and really there.

Many of us have experienced therapy disappointment, and though you can’t control this situation, you can control how you respond to it. You can find another therapist. You can try something else for a while. I’ve experienced absolute therapy devastation and have come out the other side - so I know first hand that it can be done.

I’m really sorry you’re struggling and hope you can find better help!