This is likely a huge topic for many people. All I'll write is that my bipolar behavior could attract friends (especially male love interests) easily. It lost me a lot of friends. It sometimes turned off possible friends. It made me isolate to an extreme, at times.
My baseline personality was/is that of an enthusiastic, passionate, and sociable person, with a healthy self-esteem, but as mentioned, isolation was intermittent due to episodes or regrets. I can be a perfectionist and driven, type A personality. Hypomanias/manias could make me the "star of the show", appealing or off-putting, and could sometimes include occasional anger/fury. The latter could get scary, at times.
I care a lot about people, but many rejections, and even fear of myself, have sometimes caused me to have a glass wall between myself and others. Self protection. I can seem very outgoing, but not always easy to know on a deeper level. Especially women. Not as much men.
Though once I love, I love forever. I do not hold grudges. I don't tend to hate. Hate makes me sad. That's just my way. I forgive easily. Some people forgive my behavior easily. Some don't. It's a sad reality and was one I grappled with as my idealism of youth was challenged. I rarely have fights with people. My husband and I have barely fought in all of our 23+ years together.
When I have anger, it was/is rarely focused on people. More on situations and my own inner struggles.
Last edited by Anonymous46341; May 25, 2019 at 09:20 AM.
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