Thanks everyone. T seemed to really understand that there wasn't a specific incident, just I got worn down from not doing it and the stress of just everyday life. She said there needs to be an energy that's metaphysical to help me. Okay I really don't know what she meant by that, but we also talked about needing a new routine to replace SH and the obstacles to doing so. I thought it was a very positive session and I plan to write it up IST. Thanks again everyone.