Good morning, Sinking. (Or at least it's morning where I am).

Please, dear - Mickey is SO right about the combinations of drugs and alcohol. They can kill you in the wrong combinations and doses, and certainly make you very ill. But remember: THEY CAN KILL YOU. Besides which I have to wonder how in the world you are able to function at work with all that stuff in your system? I guess your Guardian Angel is working overtime..... Please, please, please try to be more careful. I understand you're in pain and it sucks. And without the drugs there is the pain. But that's what your T is there for, right?

As to P, it sounds to me as if he has responded to you pretty regularly overall. And you've said you're not sure quite how much contact you want anyway. After all, you do have a lot of stressful stuff going on.

Well, I'll say goodbye for now. Hopefully you're getting ready for a good sleep.