My physical health is still poor. Yesterday morning I began weeping out of grief and frustration. I am sure most of my physical woes are due to the stress and trauma I have experienced all my life. After crying I pulled myself together and decided to keep on fighting. I know what I am up against but not sure how to tackle it. If I can heal my PTSD then I feel my physical health will get better and I will get less Bipolar episodes. It is not that simple but that is the gist of it. Being so immobile, feeling very ill and dealing with PTSD is wearing on me but I have hope.

Today I feel calm. Not much to report except that my sister picked me up and took me to her place for a bit which was nice. Other than that I have been sleeping, reading and watching TV. I did manage a short walk as being so still all the time can't be good for me. It hurt my hip but I need to keep as mobile as possible. My sleep has gone down from 20 hours a day to about 16 and I feel more alert when awake. My stomach isn't in agony after a simple breakfast and digesting my meds so thats a plus too. I am determined to get back to my normal physical health and keep the Bipolar monster at bay.

Hope you are all doing ok. Hugs to those who need one.