I did contact a female psychologist a few days ago that seems to have decent experience with attachment issues. (At least she wrote a publication about it). I honestly wrote to her I have intense attachment problems with male figures in an authoritarian position and feel I am in need of therapy, since the outcome of these attachment problems has been invasive. Perhaps I should not have stated this? But I want to be honest, to be sure I will find a therapist who knows how to work with this. In the past when I searched for a therapist and told about the problems I was dealing with, I was told they did not have experience with these kinds of things :-(. I live in a smaller country, not sure if that is the issue also. But I also had a bit of a feeling that these are problems they do not wish to work with.