It's been a long time since I posted. Been struggling a lot the doctor wants me to either do ECT or a new medicine through my nose. Both are impossible as the ECT is two hours away and the issue of who will watch my children and drive me there. The one through my nose is impossible unless I stop breastfeeding and that is not something I am willing to stop yet. So they do not know what to do with me.

I am hoping to sign up for a ceramics class to do something to get out of the house. Yesterday I bought some flower seeds to plant and a couple of houseplants because they made me feel better.

that's about all. I hope everyone has been doing okay.