May 26, 2019 at 07:23 AM
So my therapist wants me to pay attention to the messages of my mother in my head but I just do not recognized them. Not like I hear her voice. I never remember her yelling at me that I was worthless or not good enough.
There is one running theme for me. That I do not have anything to offer anyone like in intellectual, skill or talent and all I have is my body. Now that I am older, menopausal and having problems being as lean and fit as I use to I feel worthless and do not want to be seen. My relationship with food is getting worse. I also feel I am not worthy of his care and kindness because I do not look a certain way. But that is not my mothers message.
I have until Friday to figure this out as that is when my session is.
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When a child’s emotional needs are not met and a child is repeatedly hurt and abused, this deeply and profoundly affects the child’s development. Wanting those unmet childhood needs in adulthood. Looking for safety, protection, being cherished and loved can often be normal unmet needs in childhood, and the survivor searches for these in other adults. This can be where survivors search for mother and father figures. Transference issues in counseling can occur and this is normal for childhood abuse survivors.
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