Perhaps I have misconstrued what this thread was about. I'm sorry the OP had such tortuous experiences growing up BUT, I have taken the thread to be more about the everyday treatment the OP is having. Is this the case? Or is this entirely about childhood and youthful experiences?

I'm throwing this right out there.... I believe their present behaviour is the cause of the strife they find themselves in. People are behaving negatively on account of the negative behaviour of the OP. In fact I'm quite sure those around them are frankly sick and tired of it.

There Is a solution! Treat those around you with positive enjoyable experiences in the manner you wish to be treated yourself and voila - the world will improve around you.