This morning i woke up truly wanting to off myself. The thought of going to work and having another whole week ahead was too much. I did have the means, but i dont know how or why (maybe for parents) i got to pull through. I hate, i truly hate this f*ing life. Cant wait for it to be over. Now I'll take my pills and go to work. What else has remained to do??? What else am i supposed to do??? I dont think i can take it for much longer. Im.so tired and exhausted and unwilling to live... what a nice start today, ugh?