I'm in the reverse situation. We have also been married for 18 years. I have a porn addition which led to my wife wanting a divorce. I moved out in order to give her time to think and process. I'm seeing a therapist and while I'm getting better and learning how to deal with my addiction, my wife says she doesn't know what she wants. She said sometimes there are good days and other when she is mad at me. I finally convinced her for us to start seeing a marriage counselor, but from her actions, I 'm not sure if she wants to work it out. I too am lost not knowing where I stand or what my future will hold. As I type, she and the kids are at a party with our friends (I wasn't invited). I have a deep sucking chest wound of loneliness right now.