I have BP1 disorder and have always struggled with anger and always feel bad after I settle down and most always apologize. I’m 6 months into my second marriage and I got really sick with a colon infection. This caused rapid weight loss and dehydration which led to lithium toxicity. I will finally be able to get blood work done next week seeing as I can ride briefly in the car now. Yesterday I was in a lot of pain and my husband came in and announced something stupid that caused my blood to boil. I started an argument that ended with me yelling at him. I told him to leave me alone and he wouldn’t so I tried to push him out of the way to leave the room and he was holding me there. That’s the first time of my 36 years on this earth that anyone has ever hit me, ever. I don’t know what to think, I have been an emotional disaster these last 3 months with this infection and haven’t been very nice to anyone. I guess it was justified?