I agree with Rohag’s quote of @Merlin post.

I was wanting to say something similar

(But often my words don’t come out as “well” as some people’s do
Even when I spend ages and edit and ...... maybe that’s my “avoidant” ...
Much as I’d love to say I’m “stupid” and my self esteem and inner snake tell me I’m “worthless” ... well I’m not “stupid”

(Sigh) one of my many “flaws” .... my posts often / sometimes are rants

Sorry this is “about me” ... no need to respond to it... I guess I somewhat relate ... my snake has been telling me I’m “weak” etc a lot lately It’s lies but she loves to spout the venom the abusers fed her

As I’ve probably said many times, I don’t think you or anyone here are weak - as said above Depression is a crippling mental illness whether or not abuse is a contributing factor

You have friends here who care about you Humpty Dumpty

(Tbh I sometimes think of just isolating and not posting at all... but I don’t do that because there are people here who are “true” and you’re one of those I care about and respect

Hugs to all in this thread