are you ready to leave & end the relationship? leaving is a giant step. especially with kids involved. not something to consider lightly.

there are safe houses in every county , area for abused women. contact your local PD for help. you won't be able to take everything you own but you will be able to get out.

you'll probably need to get a court ordered order of protection against your husband.

the big priority here should be keeping your kids and yourself SAFE not so much happy. if there is violence around safety is the first priority. contact your local PD for info on what steps/options are available. it will be difficult and huge but if you want to make the break then this is what you must do.