I am having such a hard time with medication. I was on lexapro. It helped but it also had unwanted side effects. I've tried many other AD's. All with unwanted side effects. I take abilify as well. I've been on that for like 13 years. I'm not sure if that is helping. Though it may be helping w irritability. Possibly paranoia.

My pdoc put me on lamictal in March. I'm not bipolar, but she said it helps w depression. Since early May, I have had major problems with it. I'm tapering off it.

It seems like nothing really helps except lexapro, and I'm not sure I want the side effects.

I have MAJOR depression. Complete with SI, no energy to do what helps, LOW mood, negative, hopeless, no self esteem. I suffer. Like I am now. But probably worse. I don't see it as mild or moderate.

My question is: does this afflict anyone else who doesn't take meds, or who can't take meds, and do you cope well? What do you do to help yourself with your major depression?

Thanks,

Ptak