I was having a panic attack 20 minutes earlier because of how terrible my anxiety has gotten and how scared I am of everything. Then the cats were fed. 2 out of 3 of them came. The one who usually comes quickly didn’t. My 3 and 5 year old nephews were up this weekend. I think they let him out when they were playing in the backyard. We looked all over the house. Then I looked around the garage. Then the backyard. Then the neighborhood. I put something on my towns Facebook page. My emotions are so scary right now. It’s like I’ve completely shut down. Is there anything else I can do right now? I am fuming at my nephews and sister and brother in law. It will be awhile before I forgive them for this. That cat was my rock. Every time I’d look at him I’d feel so much love for him.