I'm not hallucinating, luckily, but I am hearing my own voice regularly telling me to end it and how worthless I am and that this will never end until it all ends.
Hallie, this may be the turning for the better for you. I hope it is. You deserve better. I don't.
My caffeine "addiction" is getting worse. I consumed around 950+ mg today, in total. It did make exercise a lot more fun but slightly increased my resting heart rate to almost 80. The exercise buzz wore off very quickly though. I'm hurting but considering running to get more of that rush. Or, I could just go to bed.