..first, sorry i seem to have lost my dictionary, i'll try to manage...

I've been down for few weeks now, everything is just too much right now... I just can't take care of myself at all, not even mentioning my pets... I don't know what i should do, i just feel SO bad and of course guilty for not looking after my dog, i'm an awful person i shouldn't have gotten a dog in the first place...

I haven't cleaned up for a long time, there's new lifeforms in the dishes, and just today when i actually got myself to go and buy some real food, i cried my eyes out when i got back home

I'm in tremendous self hate, i feel like doing what they did in that creepy space movie Event Horizon, tear my eyes out with my bare hands and so on... If i wasn't such a coward i'd cut myself until there was nothing left